The prompt was "ghost notes". My thoughts for this prompt were about how difficult it can be to move on from any major hurt or heartbreak. I think you can become attached to the pain of it and actually choose to remain stuck because it feels easier than making yourself vulnerable to being hurt again. In the back of your mind, you can't imagine who you would be without that pain. A long time ago, I was severely clinically depressed. I remember not wanting to get help. I was in a place where I couldn't imagine happiness and, because I couldn't imagine it, it became a much too frightening unknown. Would I still write the same kind of music? Would I still love the same people? Would I be happy in my own skin? I had no idea and I fought it for a long while. Fortunately, I was surrounded by some really good people who convinced me that I wouldn't lose who I really was, that happiness wouldn't ruin me. My fears were very real. They sometimes still are. But, I've become much better at recognizing when my fear has taken the reigns. I know what it's like to completely give in to them and I don't want to be there anymore. Can't look back.
Kind of excited about trying a new approach with the arrangement. Don't quite have the drum loop thing down but it was fun to experiment. Threw together a super simple fake bass line too. Next week's podcast will be a bit simpler but will include a video. Also, thanks to everyone who weighed in on social media about which of these songs to choose for a special project. Whether through the FB survey, comments, DMs or messages, you helped me to decide which song will be part of a compilation that will be released and promoted to support a new indie radio station. "Wake Up" prompted by "When the Clock Stops" will be that song. :)
Can’t Look Back
Start your hearts now, here we go again
Separate parts have stopped their distancing
And here I am with all that's passed
Intending to forget remembering
With a plan to get my heart back, a companion on the journey
A hand to hold in my hand, a harmony worth learning
Cause all I ever wanted were the words to be about me
And all it ever got me was lonely
And I can’t look back
Apparitions pale where truth abounds
Ghost notes fade to silent, love resounds
And here I am/ with all that lasts
Fearless, forward, stepping on the cracks
With a plan to get my heart back, a companion on the journey
A hand to hold in my hand, a harmony worth learning
Cause all I ever wanted was the song to be about me
And all it ever got me was lonely
And I can’t look back
Opening my eyes to see where I am/ going going on to
cut the binding ties that keep me here and holding , holding back the
tears that fill my eyes with all this bright light
finally in sight I’m fine to leave here
Knowing, knowing now that I can’t I can’t
I can’t look back
©LauraMarieMusic 2014
Kind of excited about trying a new approach with the arrangement. Don't quite have the drum loop thing down but it was fun to experiment. Threw together a super simple fake bass line too. Next week's podcast will be a bit simpler but will include a video. Also, thanks to everyone who weighed in on social media about which of these songs to choose for a special project. Whether through the FB survey, comments, DMs or messages, you helped me to decide which song will be part of a compilation that will be released and promoted to support a new indie radio station. "Wake Up" prompted by "When the Clock Stops" will be that song. :)
Next Monday: 'Always' on video!
Can’t Look Back
Start your hearts now, here we go again
Separate parts have stopped their distancing
And here I am with all that's passed
Intending to forget remembering
With a plan to get my heart back, a companion on the journey
A hand to hold in my hand, a harmony worth learning
Cause all I ever wanted were the words to be about me
And all it ever got me was lonely
And I can’t look back
Apparitions pale where truth abounds
Ghost notes fade to silent, love resounds
And here I am/ with all that lasts
Fearless, forward, stepping on the cracks
With a plan to get my heart back, a companion on the journey
A hand to hold in my hand, a harmony worth learning
Cause all I ever wanted was the song to be about me
And all it ever got me was lonely
And I can’t look back
Opening my eyes to see where I am/ going going on to
cut the binding ties that keep me here and holding , holding back the
tears that fill my eyes with all this bright light
finally in sight I’m fine to leave here
Knowing, knowing now that I can’t I can’t
I can’t look back
©LauraMarieMusic 2014